1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate even stop to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I Flyer than Salma or Jennifer Lopez Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The thug niggaz talking about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her body would say Everyone around the way, up trying to get in it It didn't matter how good your was, she wasn't with it All the block was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone they did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of that they let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except and did-dick Smoking with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, trying to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, they sloppy She had a style, all her own, and pure I was sick in the head for her, and there a cure
[Hook - Jean you know that, time waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm just to know you To loved and have lost, just to hold you all night find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go Hold tight to love, 'cause you never know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and then stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the turned to hours On her birthday, I her a poem with flowers Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby We talked about, to the people and such We spent time together but it was never enough I never to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in it real honest and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts I speak It was because of her, I even all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the To stop robbin' and stealin', people like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either her or my crew So I decided one day, to her my feelings was true I couldn't live without her so I told her, facing my But honey's only response, was a full of tears She could sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I sight I like a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that
3] I went on with my life, college and my Ended up up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was At in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the state me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the fact of the matter, is I still cold Even after my mother, hugged me, at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my lots of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known the New York underground But I thinking of her and how we used to be down The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though gone physically, somehow it was still I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I and visited the building where she used to live The world looks a lot different you do a bid way of life done changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the game Like her cousin who was on the corner cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, I asked about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was left She had left it there waiting, for a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me where the was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped and opened the door And enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to this, I'll probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know love really was But it hurt me, to see what true love does 'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that was It was because I loved you so much that I had to make you You made me doubt the way I thought, you me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be openly when people to me This was not the way I my life was supposed to be Baby you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me since late in I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I in the hospital because there was no one else but you Promise that meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is a blur But I remember wishing that I was dead, of her She was buried on 3rd The story ends a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love with Hold the person you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that has sex with you them to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's