1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was for hire Disciplined, beauty's what I desire than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke The thug niggaz always talking about, how they smoke But the rich-sniff-coke got no play "I'm not interested" is what her body language would say around the way, gave up trying to get in it It didn't matter how good game was, she wasn't with it All the block was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and to everyone that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave shit except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She spoke and they bit it, always trying to copy But when tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure
[Hook - Jean Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm blessed to know you To have loved and have lost, just to you all night find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go Hold tight to your love, you never know
2] Her eyes are and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was That I wasn't another nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem flowers I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, to the people and such We spent more together but it was never enough I never tried to a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly honest and complete, she always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the of my thoughts when I speak It was because of her, I even deaded all of my She me, to stop hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the point where I was with her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my was true I live without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of She could only sob hysterically, me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I left I felt a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold that night
3] I went on my life, college and my career up locked up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you they were the overseer Then I got to the hole, when my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the gave me parole In the summer, back, in tact and on track But the of the matter, is I still felt cold Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still alone Relatively well-known around the New York But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her Though gone physically, somehow it was still I had to do something, because the shit was too to bear So I went and the building where she used to live The world looks a lot different you do a bid Your way of life done While primitive minds are stuck in the same game Like her cousin who was on the slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the next to her last name Her mom me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I asked her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, was left behind She had left it there waiting, for a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a swelling up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started the worst Reversed my position, over and opened the door And sure enough was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to this, I'll probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me went to I thank God at least I got to know what really was But it hurt me, to see true love really does 'Cause even though we made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so that I had to make you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be openly when spoke to me This was not the way I my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I in the hospital because there was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is still a But I remember wishing that I was dead, of her She was on August 3rd The story ends a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in with people Hold the person that you closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that has sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and beyond 'Cause you really know what you got, until it's gone